A sitting duck in the middle stuckI’m wondering… is this enough?I’m not giving up so wish me luckAs my position is unsustainable and I’ve got to goI lock and load, prepared to rock the boatI’ll drop this cloak and tread the rocky roadI’m often closed but now I’ll put these thoughts on show
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Ego
I can’t work out if I’m overthinking or avoiding the topicDo I have my eye on the ball or have I fallen off course and lost it?Am I finally understanding who I am or have I lost all sense of identity?I try to think sensibly whilst working out who I’m meant to beI don’t want… Continue reading Ego
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It’s been a quarter of a centuryStill trying to figure out my identityA continuous crisis sent to me presenting meWith options, and opportunities descend on meAnd I have no clue who I am meant to be
Thoughts competing
Thoughts competing for my attentionOverwhelming and unrepentant I can’t seem to separate and box them offI’m on the receiving end of a molotovChaotic scenes, raging fire and I’ve got so lostI try to play them out to take them out but what’s the cost?No progress, just energy used, have I got it wrong?Running low on… Continue reading Thoughts competing
Memories are
Memories are dangerousliving on and tainting usof course we’re afraid to trustwhen we’ve felt that disgraceful touch memories are painful muchrevealing takes some gutsit is hateful stuffwe want to change this up
Tired
I’m so tired, so fucking tiredI’m not sure if my brain is wiredIn the silence I hear sirensIt’s so loud but it’s so quietAs I try to keep things privateI don’t want to stand here and broadcast itJust know I’ll never forget being a targetOf course I’d love to move past this I remember the… Continue reading Tired
Disconnection
There’s a lingering disconnectionI examine upon introspectionI’m relaxed as in my adolescenceThis happened to be an active lesson.I learned daily how to copeBut note this time feels differentEveryone is experiencing this in their existenceThe persistence is significantIt’s not cognitive dissonanceLoneliness and disconnection are endemic in the pandemic